I have been struggling. Which I know some of you that have read that read/looked at my Catch the Moment postings the last few weeks. Plus the whole not being very active on this lovely blog too. The signs have been there that I am struggling. I thought it was time for showing my struggling self.
Part of my new motto around my social media outlets has been living life in no filter. I want to try and show me. Everything you see will be who I am and what our world is. There won’t be some pretty filter or words to hide it. What you see, is what you’ll get. There will be no pretending that I fit into this certain mold. I am me with varying levels, likes, dislikes, and anything else.
Showing My Struggling Self
For whatever reason, this year has been hard for me. Ideas for new posts are not coming to me. My brain feels broken. Quite often I feel like Pooh Bear sitting here saying “Think, Think, Think” as I tap my head.
Because of lack of ideas, lacking posting, I haven’t gotten paid much. And all that lands on me. Reasons behind not getting sponsored posts are the lack of posting, lacking ideas to pitch to get picked for a sponsored post, and lack of energy.
Wishing there was some magic switch to make my brain click again and actually think of things to post about. Especially evergreen posts so I can keep readers coming back.
This year several times I thought about trying something different, quitting this as my full-time gig and trying to figure out something else. But what I do? I’m quiet in person. Being around others makes me nervous, especially strangers. This blog is something I can do behind the scenes in my own home and on my own schedule. This is the PERFECT job for me if only my brain would switch back into gear.
Good Side of This Year
The only good thing that I can say that was accomplished this year is getting to review cars for the Wheels Wednesday post. At least we have had a reliable car to use and have had some fun times testing out features. But let me tell you, being able to drive a brand new car and tell you all about it is just exciting. I still want to test out cars in the future but will be glad once we get a new car and I don’t have to completely rely on getting a car to do anything.
Here I am, I am struggling. There will be no running away. This blog will grow. Just need to figure out how to switch my brain over again. I want to write. Heck, I NEED to get paid.
I feel like such a loser not making any money this year and again it’s all on me. I’m the only one that can change that fact and I am hoping to.